Practice self-compassion

Do you even remember that 2020 started with a US drone killing an Iranian general followed by some scary days of not knowing what type of fallout might come from that? Soon after, the impeachment hearing began. At the end of January, Kobe Bryant was killed in a helicopter accident. And all this time Australia was burning.

Coronavirus talk began in late January and early February but it wasn’t until March that things really hit home here. That’s when the safer at home edict was issued in Tennessee and it felt like the world shut down around us. Things have not been the same since. We started re-opening and there has been a lot of controversy around that. Masks have been mandated in parts of the country and there is more controversy around that. Shortly have quarantine began, my hometown faced a natural disaster. In the midst of all this came the killings of Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor and George Floyd followed by protests, demonstrations and civil unrest. And weren’t there murder hornets? Can we get an update on the murder hornets??

Listen: you’re anxious. I’m not diagnosing you, but it’s true. You are. Because these broad scale events are impacting all of us! But then you add on your specific challenges and circumstances and things really spike. Maybe you’re trying to figure out what you’ll do with your kids if schools don’t open in the fall. Maybe your work hours have been cut or maybe they’ve increased. Maybe you’re trying to keep your business afloat. Maybe you miss going to Target! Everyone’s anxiety level is riding higher than usual.

Why am I telling you this? The less aware we are of our anxiety, the more likely that we are coping in ways that are problematic. Is your fuse short and you find yourself yelling at your family more? Are you drinking more than you used to? Are you over or under eating and dealing with the health issues/shame that come as a result? Are you being domineering and trying to control all the people in your life? Are you struggling to find motivation or energy to do much of anything at all? All of these are signs of anxiety.

Look, I’m not trying to shame you. As a matter of fact, I’d point you toward the opposite. I think what you need is a good dose of self-compassion. Because your anxiety tells me that you feel overwhelmed and unsafe in the world. How would you respond if a friend or your child came to you and told you they were feeling overwhelmed and unsafe? On a good, healthy day, you’d respond with compassion. Can you offer that to yourself?

To talk about the practicalities of this, I’m going to tell you about my favorite part of a yoga class. Nearly every class I’ve ever taken has had a point in which the instructor says something along these lines: “Ok, I want you to take a minute and check in with your body. What do you need? Do you need another flow? Maybe a child’s pose? Maybe you need to play around with some inversion practice? Whatever it is, I want you to take a few minutes and offer that to yourself.”

Friends, there is so much compassion and self-care in that! What do I need? Now, I’m going to offer that to myself. The reality is that sometimes we need a big ass kale salad and sometimes a chocolate milkshake (endorphins!). Sometimes we need a run and others we need a nap. Some days we need a punching and some days a hug.

I bet you’re being hard on yourself these days. I know I am. I feel guilty because my son is in front of a screen more than I prefer. And that can sometimes trickle down to my people. I’m shorter with him than I would normally be. And then I’m beating myself up about that. You can see how this can spiral. So, what if, instead of being hard on myself, I offered compassion instead. What do I need? Can I offer that to myself today/this week? That might start to trickle down, too.

So, can we try this? When we notice those signs that tell us that we’re anxious, overwhelmed, feel unsafe, can we acknowledge what’s really happening and ask ourselves what we might need to feel a little better? You’ll find that acknowledging what is underneath it all provides some relief all on it’s own. But then take the extra step and figure out what you need and how you might offer that to yourself. Give it a try and let me know how it goes!

Helping Kids Process Quarantine

“I miss JuJu and Poppaw.”

I could see his big blue eyes brimming with tears and my heart just broke for him. It’s Tuesday. He knows it’s the day that he stays with my in-laws while his dad and I are both working. He’s feeling what we’re all experiencing on some level right now: grief.

Big or small, we have all experienced numerous losses with this quarantine. We’ve lost people, jobs, social interaction, freedom, options, routine, security, and a thousand other things that we’re discovering along the way. Our kids are feeling those losses, too. But they really don’t have the language or the self-awareness to bring it up to us. So, this is how I brought it up for him.

“Oh, buddy, this quarantine has taken a lot away from all of us. What has it taken away from you?” He spent some time naming grandparents and restaurants, playgrounds and friends. My little extrovert is missing his people! As he named those losses, the tears began to flow. Then I asked how he was feeling about those losses. “Sad!”

And we sat with that sadness for a few minutes. He cried and I snuggled him close. I let him cry as much as he needed to because his sadness is right. Just like your sadness is right. This is hard.

Once he stopped crying I said, “You know, this quarantine has given us some things, too! More time together. Daddy’s home more. What about you? What has quarantine given you?” He talked about playing outside more and throwing frisbee with Daddy. He has gotten to play his Yoshi game more. More time for snuggles.

“And how does that feel?”

“That feels happy!”

We talked about how weird it is that the same thing can make us happy and make us sad. Then we talked about all the other feelings we are feeling right now because of quarantine (frustration, anger, disappointment, etc.)

Listen, his mom is a therapist. So he has had lots and lots of practice talking about his feelings, but you don’t have to be a therapist to help your kid process all of this.

Practice on yourself! What are some of the losses you’ve experienced in this crazy season? Can you give yourself a minute to sit with that. Don’t try to fix it or talk yourself out of it. Just feel it. It’s painful. But it will not consume you. What are some of the gains? Can you give yourself a minute to feel that, too? Because most of us have experienced both! And it’s complicated, because often we allow one to overshadow the other, or use one to dismiss the other. A hard season makes it harder to acknowledge the good. A good season makes us feel like we shouldn’t feel bad. But usually, there’s both happening at the same time.

The other complicating factor is comparison. Other people have it so much worse, what do I have to be sad about? Noah isn’t having to figure out how to work from home, pay bills or get groceries. But his four year old heart is missing his people, his routine. And that is valid! Do some people have it harder than him? Yes, but he has the gift of not knowing that. He gets to just feel about what he’s experiencing. What if we allowed ourselves the opportunity to do that too? Regardless of what someone else is experiencing, you are experiencing your hard right now. You’re allowed to feel it.

After you’ve given yourself some space to explore this for yourself, have that conversation with your kids in a way that fits your own voice. Here are the things to keep in mind.

1) Acknowledge the losses. Help them name some of the emotions related to those losses. Talk about what’s challenging. Give them a little space to feel it. If tears come, give them room for tears. If frustration comes, give room for it. Give them a minute to yell if they need to and not get in trouble for it. This does not give them license to be unkind to anyone, but a verbal outlet for their feelings.

2) Don’t rush to fix how they’re feeling. It’s not broken.

3) Acknowledge the gains. What’s been good? What’s been positive? How are you feeling about those things? Give space for that. Because we tend to receive emotions related to good things better than the ones related to hard things, there may not be as much need for outward expression because it feels safe to express happy on an ongoing basis. But it’s still so important to acknowledge it and sit with it for a minute.

4) What’s it like for both to be present? Happy and sad, both together. Talk about that tension. It’s weird. That’s the word I’m hearing most often as people process this. It’s a weird season. We don’t have great ways to talk about things that are both!

5) Let this be the first of many conversations. Check in every few days. “Noticed any other losses or gains?” “How are things feeling this week? What’s the strongest thing you’re feeling? What else is there, too?”

If talking about feelings with kids is a newer experience (as it is to many, many parents), try pulling up a list of feeling words to help you and them find the language. Another great resource is this children’s book. I love it because it talks about a number of different emotions and has great descriptive language for the experience of each one.*

If you are a Christian and want faith to be part of the conversation, you might talk about bringing our grief to God and also our gratitude. We can acknowledge our grief when we’re sad and hurting and He cares for us and comforts us. He also celebrates with us over the things for which we are grateful.

I hope this his helpful. I hope this gives you ideas on how to start a conversation and make it your own to help kids acknowledge all that is happening in their internal worlds. I’d love to hear your ideas as well! Let me know in the comments, here or on social media, how you’re talking with your kids about this weird time in which we’re living.

*Note: I am not affiliated with Amazon or with the author of the linked book.

Surviving a Pandemic

“Mommy, don’t touch your face! Don’t forget, you’re not supposed to touch your face!”

We sat down with Noah on Sunday and had a talk about germs and the virus. We got the idea for how to explain it to him from a video. We talked about washing our hands and, obviously, not touching our faces. So, now he’s the germ police and I am not mad about it. I want to keep him safe.

I was never the mom who put my kid in a bubble. (There’s nothing wrong with that mom, by the way!) I am pretty laid back by nature so, I haven’t been super worried about germs. Kids get colds. Of course, I’m not having him lick anyone with the flu, but I’m not uptight about germs. So, in light of this virus, I’m finding that I am not quite myself.

As a matter of fact, I think a lot of us are feeling that. Even the most laid back of us are feeling the panic right now. What is happening in the world is unprecedented and we have not experienced it in our lifetime. So much is unknown and so much is outside of our control. And because of social media, we are on information overload right now.

I wanted to do a post to share some things that I’m trying to keep in mind in the midst of all of this, as well as some resources that might be helpful.

1) All of those unknowns in your mind that get your brain a bit spinny: they are unknowns for everyone! No one knows when this thing will end. No one. No one can tell you, currently, when it is safe to go out again. And that doesn’t feel good. It’s really hard to not know what life will look like over the coming weeks and months. It’s hard to not know how to plan for the future. Life looks really different right now and it’s a huge adjustment for all of us. And we don’t know when we get to figure out what normal looks like on the other side of this. So, we just all have to try to take it one day at a time. Deep breath, everyone.

2) We are all grieving. Every last one of us is grieving something. For some, you’re grieving that you can’t just go eat at your favorite restaurant right now. That grief is valid. For some, you’re grieving the loss of milestones and big life events like graduations, proms, weddings, etc. Some are grieving the loss of loved ones. Some are grieving the loss of structure and routine and “normal” life. Actually, all of us are likely grieving that last one. Be kind to yourself in your grief. If you can be kind to yourself, you are much more likely to be kind to others. You might feel angry, sad, frustrated, devastated, depressed, anxious, overwhelmed, or any number of other things. All of these are normal experiences of grief. Don’t beat yourself up about them. And most of you are doing that, because our default is to be hard on ourselves. Just find healthy ways to express them when you can. Have a good cry, do a workout video, angry dance in your room, punch some pillows, anything that helps you get that grief out without hurting someone else. This is how to show kindness to yourself in it.

3) This is a lot. Our whole lives changed in the matter of a week. That is not an exaggeration. And, I’ve got to be honest with you, we may be here for a while. The idea of slowing the spread of the virus is a really good one because it makes us less likely to overwhelm our healthcare system. However, it also draws this out over a longer period of time. It’s going to take some time to figure this whole thing out. Give yourself and your family buckets of grace. Kids’ screen time may go up for a while so you can take a breath and figure this out. Suddenly, everyone is homeschooling and most of us did not sign up for this! You might need a little more Netflix bingeing or reading as an escape. I am not encouraging you to check out of your life altogether, but give yourself some breaks.

4) You are anxious. Seriously. It feels like someone pumped the air full of anxiety and we’re all just breathing it in all the time. You may think you’re not anxious, but I assure you, you are. Some of you think it’s crazy that I thought I needed to point that out. But I know it’s true because I’m one of you “non-anxious” types. I don’t run around screaming that the sky is falling in a crisis. I handle it. But I carry it all in my body. It just holds and absorbs all the stress. I bet my laid back friends have more headaches and back pain right now. I bet you find yourself more irritable with your loved ones. Whether you’re aware of your anxiety or not, you can take good care of yourself by giving yourself breaks and moving your body. If you notice that the questions are starting to make you feel like your head will explode; if someone says any more words, of any kind, you’re going to lose your mind; if you notice that you’ve been sitting in the same spot for a while and you can’t quite remember what you were doing or thinking about, all of these are signs of anxiety. Pay attention to that. Don’t avoid it or immediately try to fix it. Ask yourself what you’re feeling scare of and name it all. As much as you can. Then move your body!

5) Single friends, come here. Close, close in. I’m worried about you. Especially if you live alone. We all feel isolated right now, even in our homes that are full. But for my friends out there who are single, I just want to move you all into my house right this minute. There’s a lot of time for you to get in your head about things. There’s limited social interaction and no physical touch. Check on your friends that live alone. Find ways to connect with people in safe ways.

6) Control the controllables and try to let go of the rest. You cannot control whether people choose to follow guidelines for social distancing. You can control whether you do. We’re all trying to figure this thing out. For some people, until someone they know gets sick, they will continue to be out. I’m sorry. There’s not a thing you can do. Sure, post videos about exponential growth and flattening the curve. But also know, you can’t control their choices, no matter how scary and concerning they are to you. You can, however, choose not to allow someone in your home or around your people if they have been choosing things that make you uncomfortable. Also, you cannot control whether people judge the choices you make. If you need to go for a run or a hike for your mental health, there will be people who struggle with that. It’s because they’re scared. And you can’t control that. And you don’t have to.

Anxiety is always future focused, we worry about what is to come, but the present moment is safe. That’s why mindfulness is helpful, it grounds you in the present. I did a whole post on trying to help you ground in the present. There are also apps out there like Calm (ios or android) or Headspace (ios or android) that can help with grounding.

We all need to move our bodies! There are so so many resources out there for this. And a lot of them are free! One of my favorite YouTube channels is Yoga with Adriene. I don’t know Adriene, but she knows her stuff when it comes to yoga. She’s got videos of all different types and lengths, so dig around until you find something that fits you and your schedule. There are all types of videos out there for a good work out. Find ways to get your heart rate up! Your kids need to move, too! My friend, Aaron Wood, who’s a PE coach at a local elementary school, started a YouTube channel for his students so they could have PE class at home. He’s fun and goofy and the perfect PE teacher. Your kids will love it!

Find creative things to do! Again, YouTube is a great resource for this! Here’s a video of science projects you can do with things that you may already have lying around your home. Ever thought about learning calligraphy? Lindsey Bugbee of “The Postman’s Knock” has a great channel with lots of fun projects and lessons. Ever heard of Skillshare? They have classes for just about anything you might want to learn to do or make. You can sign up for a free membership which gives you access to some of their content. Their higher tier membership, that’s paid, gives you access to all of it. They give you 2 weeks or a month for free, but if you find a skillshare instructor on Instagram or a blog, they have referral links that give you two months free! Try searching "#skillshare on Instagram.

We are all on social media right now and it is a scary place to be! Scrolling is a way to escape, typically, but right now, our feeds are filled with scary stories, videos, and statistics. Try following some happy accounts on Instagram to give you a little break. Upworthy is one of my favorites. They, along with Good News Movement and Good, post happy, feel good content. Crisis brings out the very best and very worst in humanity. These feeds can give you a dose of the good.

Also, did you realize how often we all eat?? Three times EVERY SINGLE DAY! And the worst part for me is figuring out what to make! It’s exhausting! Supercook is a search engine that helps you find recipes based on what you have on hand in your pantry.

If you are a Christian and looking for some helpful voices, I’d love to introduce you to two of my favorites: Jenn Hand and Beth Wayland. Both have been working hard to provide content on social media to help you process what’s happening and to be a voice of hope and comfort.

A final note: my desire is to provide resources and ideas for you. I get no kickback, financial gain, or benefit from linking to any of the above parties. I am also not affiliated with any of them. So click to your hearts’ content and feel free to share your own ideas in the comments below or back on Facebook or Instagram.